I'm sorry for assuming, yeah that was a dick move. I shouldnt have said anything.
But you know what, Ryota? I love you so fucking much that it breaks my heart that Im not enough for you. I want to be the only person you need...I want to be your world...but right now I feel like...Im just an unwelcome visitor in it...I cant talk to anyone about us--and I cant talk to you either because you have all these double standards and act like the world revolves only around you. I am doing everything I can to be strong and confident and secure--but fuck, Im human and Im scared. Im terrified. I am insecure even though Im doing my damnedest not to be...and now Im fucking crying because im happy that youve gone a week being with only me......I...I love you....and what i want more than anything in the world is to hold you right now....and try and talk about this in person instead of on these stupid journals....can we do that, please?
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But you know what, Ryota? I love you so fucking much that it breaks my heart that Im not enough for you. I want to be the only person you need...I want to be your world...but right now I feel like...Im just an unwelcome visitor in it...I cant talk to anyone about us--and I cant talk to you either because you have all these double standards and act like the world revolves only around you. I am doing everything I can to be strong and confident and secure--but fuck, Im human and Im scared. Im terrified. I am insecure even though Im doing my damnedest not to be...and now Im fucking crying because im happy that youve gone a week being with only me......I...I love you....and what i want more than anything in the world is to hold you right now....and try and talk about this in person instead of on these stupid journals....can we do that, please?